Back, again.

I just can't seem to get back into the blogging thing, I had a blog and  updated almost daily for about six years. I took that one down and have never been able to get back into it.

So here's another try.

I think the scales are down about eight pounds from that last post. Summer is always the easiest time for me to lose weight. It's the cold weather that it ends up moving the wrong way. I'm hoping that won't be true this winter. I'm going to give it a good try, some good effort hopefully. It's those cold, dark months that make it hard to drag out and exercise. And I've found at least for me that indoor exercise just doesn't have the same affect on my body.

So the treadmill and strength trainer don't get used a lot, but they come in handy during the really cold or hot times. Another neat thing about me and my body is that in the heat of summer I can go out and walk, I'm talking fast walk like msot people do, but in the cooler weather I can't seem to do it as well. I find that odd. I can't even stand to be in the heat at all really, but get me out walking in it and I can go and sweat and not even thing about it.

So this post doesn't even really have a point I guess, just trying to get back into it a little.

Well I was joking around this week about the scale being broken and going the wrong way, but it's not funny. I've tried to stop spending so much money on the meals I was buying that were helping me and that's at least one place where I went wrong. Every time I try this I fail. I need those frozen meals because they have the right servings and I don't even have to think about it. And they are extremely low fat.

The thing is we're in a hole again and trying to pull out of it. So the stress doesn't help and trying to save money on food always means buying less healthy stuff. I don't care what people, Dr. Phil, whoever says you can't buy fresh or frozen veggies and lean meats and spend less money. Or at least I can't.

Also stress eaters, well as stress eaters the hubby and I of course turn to food when things are going bad financially. Worried about the mortgage. A little behind and it's scary. This time there's no one who will help us, family or anybody and it's very scary. Being an adult is not very fun.

I can't completely blame the husband, but his pushing me to choose between the houses we looked at 3 years ago and make a fast decision really didn't help the situation. He couldn't wait to get out of the little trailer we were living in for almost nothing because it belonged to a friend. He denies it now, but the real estate agent had a shocked look on her face that I'll never forget. It was rather embarrassing.

Anyway tomorrow is another day and I'll give it my best. I've been eating small meals, it's just if I don't eat those low fat meals it doesn't seem to help, scale starts going backwards anyway.

Getting There

Well it's been awhile, but I've got good news. I have lost 20 pounds now since a few days after the new year. I hope to keep going, it's what I spend a lot of the time trying to doe. Thinking before I choose something to eat. Thinking about the fact that I'm jus a little hungry before I choose something so that I don't get way more than I need.

And the scale said today, that I should stop eating the wrong foods again due to emotional eating. Also if the weather would cooperate so I could actually get outside with freezing to death in a matter of minutes, it would help a lot. When I can get outside on a daily basis, it helps so much. I eat a lot less, no eating for feelings, because I feel good then. I told the kids though that this week when it's not snowing and I can get out we will start going to the park again. Winter time is the best time to go walk and wonder around there, we are always the only people there from late fall until early spring weather.

Being active just hasn't been easy or fun lately like it used to be. And I have to get back to it every day again. I'm active, but in this weather it's only been in the house. Which house work can feel like a lot, but it doesn't do a whole lot for the body. Mostly I'm stuck back in the kitchen cooking and washing dishes and coking and washing dishes. It really isn't good for a person trying to eat less and move more. But if I get myself out of there more, then we spend more money on food. It's just the way it works for me. I know I could be cooking healthier, but I'm trying to halfway do that and still cook cheaply, not easy really for the whole family of five.

I think I'll end this now, because I'm mostly just making up excuses I guess. And I know it's bad, I just have to give in and so it right all the time.

And the Scale Says....

Haven't decided if having a scale in the house again is a good thing or bad thing yet. I do like knowing, but sometimes seeing that number go down will tend to let me think things. Things like well it's dropping, I can have that little snack here or there or extra this or that a little, it won't hurt.

In good news, in five days the scale dropped 2 pounds. I'm happy with that. They always say it should be about 2 pounds a week. So I think I do like knowing and I think that will help keep me going.

Well having this bad cold might not help. When I have a cold at first I don't want a lot to eat and then I get really weak and want more to eat. I never know if while being sick I should just go with it a little more or keep it cut back.

Water

Water has never been a problem for me. I get way more than most people I know. I bought the largest Brita water pitcher a few months back to save on the money I was using for bottled water. It said that it was enough to get the 8 glasses of water in a day, something like that. Well I am the only one to use it most days around here, and I have to fill the thing so many times a day. At least 5 times probably. I will never understand how the husband never ever takes a sip of water in any given day. Only drinks tea, soda or coffee. I would probably die without a sip of water for one day. I get dehydrated really easy. The kids are like their father, but not quite as bad. They will get a glass of water if there is nothing else. They all say that water just feels sloshy and makes them feel sick. I even drink a small glass of tea and feel like it's way to heavy. Funny how that is. I was raised in a house where we only had soda with dinner on the weekends. And then we didn't each get one of those big glass bottles, it was only a glass. We had water and sometimes Koolaid with all the meals the rest of the time. With the occasional exception of course. I don't let my kids have much soda. I don't keep it in the house, except for Sprite in the sickness seasons like fall and winter for bad tummy's. I do let them get one sometimes when we are out. Lately they are asking for it and expecting it every time we go now. So I had to cut back on that, let them know that it's a treat not an every time thing.

I have been missing from here I know. I have been working to get myself back to doing the things to get healthier. It's been one week at a time, one day at a time for the past few weeks. I have been noticing many things in my life for the past few months that I read about in other overweight blogs. The past two weeks I think it really started to sink in that I am just letting it all go again. So I've been doing a lot of mental work. It really takes a lot of mental work for me. I have to get things straight in my head. I have to stop and think about what I'm going to eat at every meal or snack. If I take the time to stop and think about the food choices I will usually make the better choice. If I let myself get to hungry then I'm going to want to grab anything to eat. And in this house at times there are lots of bad choices of food in the kitchen. I'm not always the one to bring them in. I try to put blinders on when walking through the store. Especially near the candy, cookie and bakery parts.


Breakfast: tuna salad sandwich, few mixed nuts, water
Snack: none
Lunch: Lean Cuisine cheese ravioli meal, fruit and jello cup, water
Dinner: 2 ranchero chicken soft tacos with guacamole, passed up the fries I picked up for everyone else and made small side salad at home, water
Snack: 1/2 cup shredded cheddar with pickles, about 5 mini chocolate rice cakes, water