Ok, so I want to be just like Oprah , no not really. I'm just coming out of my own denial. I am so off track it's pathetic. I know that I mess up and then go back to it, but lately not for more than a day or two if that. I keep telling myself that it's ok, tomorrow's another day. But if you tell yourself this daily then you really won't ever get anywhere. So I am coming clean and starting over.

It's even been so bad that at times last week and this week I've eaten something around here and told myself that if I just eat the junky fattening food and get it out of the house that way, I'll start fresh the next day. I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I spent a couple years losing very very slowly, gaining a little and then just maintaining, but I'm just back to my old ways completely I think.

So I'm planning out my meals for tomorrow and I'm getting my exercise. I'm going to plan the weeks meal ahead. I'm not going to worry about fixing something for me healthy and then something the kids will eat. I'm just going to plan my light meals for everyone and they will eat it or leave it. I know the husband has been trying to get back to doing better this week, so he's on board. And my oldest kid, well he doesn't care what you fix, it could be nothing but veggies everyday and he would be happy with them. But then the other two are picky, although I changed it a little, they've had to eat the veggies every meal I fix them. Just a serving, but better than none.

So no more excuses, planning of meals ahead and sticking with it, and at least 30 minutes of exercise everyday again with increase every little bit. That's my plan. And I'm going to give it all I've got to stick to it. I'm hoping that writing here again will help. It did earlier in the fall when I was doing good and feeling much better.