I'm sitting here trying to finish up the last few minutes of a bad movie before I go to bed. Thought I would update the food for the past couple days and write something. So I'm still struggling. I get so tired of struggling and yet I don't work hard enough to change it for good. It feels never ending. I want it to end though.

Caught a glimpse of myself a window tonight. I really don't think the window was distorting my image. I don't always feel fat, but lately I have been feeling it and it feels horrible!!

I went out about 8:30 tonight and walked up and down the driveway with the dog, until he had gone to the bathroom so many times and he was getting bored with the walking in circles. Walks are funny with dogs, becuase it makes them use the bathroom so many times, a good laxative for them. It beat no walk. I didn't get out early enough to go for a real walk somewhere else. I don't like walking alone. And I have a duaghter who isn't completely over the sinus infection, a son who is so sick with the sinus infection or really severe head cold or something. Then there's the husband who hates taking walks even though he's supposed to be doing it for his cholesterol and stuff. And last the teenage son who thinks it's horrible to be out with a parent now and never wants to spend a minute in the same area as the rest of his family in the evenings after school. I have to learn to walk alone. I could go in town during the day while the kids are in school. I even bought better headphones to go with my mp3 player so it can keep me company and yet I still haven't gone that way.

Oh well off to bed now, might end up at some doctor's office tomorrow to see about child who is so sick. Waiting until Monday seems to rough on him. Not sure I can get in anywhere on last second though. We'll see I guess.